A New Year, The Same Me

...albeit with a few modifications.

2009 ended and 2010 began with travels to the U.K. and France (Paris and Nimes).
And 2010 began with some decisions (not resolutions) to try something different or re-try something old.

The first decision was to make a concentrated effort at being a vegetarian. Most friends think it's about health or ethics or finances. It's none of these. It's about discipline - to acknowledge the options that are available to you and make that one choice to keep to your decision.

The second decision was to review the "stuff" that I have and decide whether I really need it (as oppose to want it). That which I do not need I then decided I am going to give away. This decision has since become a charity initiative organized by myself and a fairy friend VS.

The third decision was to totally (finally) cut-off all my financial apron-strings. This was the easiest for me to do, though toughest on my pocket. Yet, I have to start being realistic with my spending habits and the only way to become disciplined about that is to have some real sense of my financial "worth."

And one month into it, I am not doing too bad. Will keep you updated.

SHIFTING SANDS OF TIME !

Time moves,
so do we
But the Child in us is Free
It does not grow
As Events come and go
Age makes you wiser, they say
but Impressions Linger,
as we weighthe second self or alter ego
Lives what we would be and not are on show
Memories of past, good and bad
are better forgotten on the road
Rocky foundations not shifting sands of Time
take imprints and leave footprints on the sands of Time !

muppets

Since I could remember, I was always a fan of the Muppets.
Sesame Street to The Muppet Show to every other movie with them as the starring cast.
There was something about them - it was 'magical'

No Need To Argue

Empty

All I can feel ...

This very moment is empty.

The Light @ The End of The Tunnel

Hope that the light symbolizes the end, but prepare yourself should it be instead the light from an oncoming train.

Know Who I Am

This past week was an interesting one for me.
I have had a few triumphs and a few stagnation points.
Yet, through it all, I felt rather weepy.
Before I ascribe it to simply hormones (and it could simply be hormones), I want to ask myself if there is something I am just not permitting myself to see or to accept.
The truth is that I have worked very hard these past few years towards developing my sense of self and with it the confidence.
While my thin veneer of confidence is now bolstered by a real sense of worth, there still is a little doughnut-hole filled with air.
Yes, deep inside, there is a nugget of emptiness.
Though before it was easy to pierce through my veneer and enter this space, it is much harder now.
But here I am... feeling it. Feeling that void.

My mantra... "Just trust myself."