Facing ...

Growing, growing, and growing.
Painful, painful, and painful.

I am beginning to recognize how ... truly truly truly ignorant I am.
Things are happening all around me, and I feel such a bystander.
Do I ever really take a stand on anything?

We talked about neutrality. We talked about silence.
How important it is, yet how destructive it can be.
Sin by omission as oppose to commission.

"Take a stand!" - That's the message I have been hearing today.

I reach out - I leap (eyes closed)

Where am I?

Enough of the abstract... now to the concrete.

I am learning today, of all days, to speak - make my voice heard. Air my grievance. Take a side. Make a choice. No more pussy-footing. What is I really want?

I want to look into the mirror and see what everyone sees.

I shine.

I am this funny, creative, capable individual who makes the best effort to be there for others (sometimes, at the expense of meeting my own needs).

I have my flaws, true, who doesn't - but enough of flaws... for I have the fantastic as well.

People stop talking, turn around and take a moment to give me my space. Anyone will say, I have presence. I come across as self-assured who talks knowledgeably about topics at hand even those that I admit I am not the most familiar. Yet, people welcome my thoughts, my opinions - that I always offer something worthwhile. I am worthwhile.

Yes, this post is a self-aggrandizing one, BUT come on, if I don't do it, WHO will?

And here I stand, pussy-footing around, wanting your attention. Your attention means I'm worthwhile. That is NOT true. It is because I am worthwhile that you want to give me your attention.

For I shine.