Done Hiding

Anchor

Who is your anchor?

Facing ...

Growing, growing, and growing.
Painful, painful, and painful.

I am beginning to recognize how ... truly truly truly ignorant I am.
Things are happening all around me, and I feel such a bystander.
Do I ever really take a stand on anything?

We talked about neutrality. We talked about silence.
How important it is, yet how destructive it can be.
Sin by omission as oppose to commission.

"Take a stand!" - That's the message I have been hearing today.

I reach out - I leap (eyes closed)

Where am I?

Enough of the abstract... now to the concrete.

I am learning today, of all days, to speak - make my voice heard. Air my grievance. Take a side. Make a choice. No more pussy-footing. What is I really want?

I want to look into the mirror and see what everyone sees.

I shine.

I am this funny, creative, capable individual who makes the best effort to be there for others (sometimes, at the expense of meeting my own needs).

I have my flaws, true, who doesn't - but enough of flaws... for I have the fantastic as well.

People stop talking, turn around and take a moment to give me my space. Anyone will say, I have presence. I come across as self-assured who talks knowledgeably about topics at hand even those that I admit I am not the most familiar. Yet, people welcome my thoughts, my opinions - that I always offer something worthwhile. I am worthwhile.

Yes, this post is a self-aggrandizing one, BUT come on, if I don't do it, WHO will?

And here I stand, pussy-footing around, wanting your attention. Your attention means I'm worthwhile. That is NOT true. It is because I am worthwhile that you want to give me your attention.

For I shine.

What do I LOVE to do?

A colleague of mine posted on her facebook wall: Instead of asking, "What do you want to be?" Ask, "What do you LOVE to do?"

My answer to that would be :-
I LOVE to meet and engage with people, communicate in a manner that enables me to learn about them and, perhaps, connect with them in a real meaningful way. I want that interaction to be the foundation from which I am inspired to ideas that will help them and others like them to be better, feel better, achieve better for themselves.
I LOVE to take an idea, and make it happen - especially, if that idea can benefit others to be inspired to make things happen both for themselves and others.

3 Things I am Grateful For:

1. My Sayang.
2. My close friends - in NYC, Philly, Singapore, and now here in Davis, CA
3. My personal sense of style

Sucker Punch

Everyone has an Angel. A Guardian who watches over us. We can't know what form they'll take One day, Old man, Next day, Little girl. But don't let appearances fool you, They can be as fierce as any dragon. Yet they're not here to fight our battles. But to whisper from our hearts. Reminding that it's us. Its everyone of us who holds power over the world we create.

You can deny angels exist, Convince ourselves they can't be real. But they show up anyway, at strange places and at strange times. They can speak through any character we can imagine. They'll shout through demons if they have to. Daring us, challenging us to fight.

Who honors those we love with the very life we live? Who sends monsters to kill us, and at the same time sings that we'll never die? Who teaches us what's real, and how to laugh at lies? Who decides why we live, and what we'll die to defend? Who chains us, and who holds the key to set us free? It's you. You have all the weapons you need. Now fight!

In this world, there will be a time that we will come face to face with evil (evil defined loosely - with a face unique to each of us) faced. Sweet Pea, who appears frail and powerless, faces her evils not simply for herself... but for those around her that she seeks to protect - to provide - an end to their exploitation (freedom). I am left asking - am I courageous enough to stand up for the things in this life that are worth defending? Am I willing to stand up-in the face of evil-for the things that are good? Courage - will - determination... to face the truth. When you are willing to shed your complacency you will be more courageous than any hollywood action hero.

All I require from you is a slither of a moment. To have you not by force, but simply as a man and a women. To see in your eye, that simple truth, that you give yourself to me freely. Not because you have to, but because you want to. Now of course, for such a gem, I will give as well. I'm willing to give you freedom. Pure and total freedom. Freedom from the drudgery of everyday life. Freedom as abstract ideal. Freedom from pain. Freedom from responsibility. Freedom from guilt. From regret. Freedom from sadness. Freedom from loss. The freedom to be happy. Don't close your eyes; I need you to look at me. The freedom to love.

http://www.filmonair.com/video/sucker-punch-intro-sweet-dreams

Needs

Sitting on my desk at work is a file organizer. Attach to that file organizer is a sticker. A pleasant purple and white sticker that reads "Family Needs." It lists all the support available in the community to assist an individual (a family) with meeting his/her need(s). They include:-
Food
Clothing
Childcare/Parenting Classes
Health/Dental Care
Housing
Job Training/Employment
"Learn to Read"
Family Violence / Child Abuse
Alcohol, Drug & Mental Health Services
Teen Help
Suicide
Transportation
Emergency