Jealousy...

"Jealousy is one of the toughest feelings we come up against in our live, yet jealousy is a common human feeling.

Jealousy has something good to offer us - information about our own heart’s desire.

When we find that we are jealous of certain people, and we are aware of this jealousy - by acknowledging it, we may discover what we want for ourselves. This discovery is the first step to achieving our desire. Whatever it is, it is possible that we could create it for ourselves, in our own lives, if we are able to honor our own desires.

Other times, it may have to be a lesson about acceptance and the understanding that our path is different from the paths of those around us. While, it may be hard to see now - it will eventually be clear why our life has taken its particular path.

In the end, the best cure for jealousy is the recognition that the life we have is full of its own meaning and beauty, utterly unique to us—a gift that could never be found in the life of another."

Lately, I have been jealous. I am jealous of my friends who can be in the company and presence of their loved ones. Don't get me wrong - I am very fortunate to be able to say that I am loved. However, I have lived alone for a long time. True, I have friends - again, for whom I am very grateful. Yet, there is something to be said about the presence of unconditional support I can come home to on a regular basis. I trust (and know) that such support already exists in a form that cannot be touched, but I am beginning to realize that I seek more to be able to hold it in my arms. Awareness of my jealousy has only revealed to me my desire to be closed to the ones I love - selfishly, so I know the comfort of being in their presence. So now I work tirelessly towards my goal - to be with the ones I love.